As I sit down to write this, I realize this is the hardest post I've had to write. This really surprises me because it is also the post I have been most looking forward to writing. It hurts my heart because I want the rest of you who are reading this while going through the infertility struggle to join me on the other side. I will continue to pray for each of you that you will join me in God's perfect timing.
I will say this journey of waiting taught me so much about His perfect plan. We found out (much to our shock!) that we were 4 weeks pregnant on January 30. We hadn't been going to the fertility specialist in months! My mom went to Church of the Apostle's Sanctity of Life service on January 18. When Dr. Youssef prayed for those who want to have a baby, my mom stood up in my proxy. Meanwhile, my sister has said all along that I would have a baby when they would have a cousin the same age. Well, that's true now with 3 months in age difference!
This is the service if you want to watch it. The prayer I was talking about starts at about 18:00 http://apostles.org/series/?enmse=1&enmse_sid=52&enmse_mid=169
Will has also been telling me all along that I needed to be okay with God being enough and learn to patient while waiting on a baby. Sure enough, the evening I took the pregnancy test my prayer was that God's will would be done. For the first time before taking a pregnancy test, I told God I was okay with either option and asked for joy whatever the answer may be.
I can't believe this waiting season in our life is closing and that I am moving on to worshiping through mommy-hood! I feel blessed that I had this opportunity to worship while I wait, and pray that I can now bring our Lord glory while raising His precious child that He has entrusted to us.
This is going to be my last post for now because I don't want this to turn into "mommy blog". This blog was intended to encourage people who are waiting on something they want desperately. I got the ultimate encouragement that seasons of waiting can come to a happy ending, but the last thing I want to do is brag about this joy to those of you who aren't there yet. I will continue to pray for each of you reading this that your waiting will also come to the conclusion you have been praying for. If there is ever anything I can do for you, please know I am still here to talk and pray for you.
I would like to end by asking for two final prayer requests. Please continue to pray for a healthy pregnancy and delivery as well as Will and I as we start this journey of parenthood.
